livin in dark~

came across a fren's profile in facebook, a fren that i didn know who she was.
shocked by just seeing her pictures... that were amazing... words just couldn tell...

sometimes, i really wish that i could be one of them, living in the dark, living in "OWN" body, and never care about tomorrow, as if tomorrow never exist. being myself, never care, never think, let feeling, lust,desire run wild, evoke the inner limitless potential of mine, run, jump and fly ~ unstopable.

wat r the price that i am goin to pay? huh?
seriously asking myself, am i not paying now??? even now i am yet not being like them?
i will unleash myself one day, and when that day comes, i will shine like hell!!!!!!!!

she inspires me, she seduces me...

a beautiful lie

plane finally touched the land of sri langka, katherine mcphee's 'anybody's heart' playing in ears.
yeah.... i remember of him.
"the heart that u have broken is not just anybody's heart~"
"all i wanted just to feel safe... safe in ur arm~"
i am sad, a little, more like a feeling of unable to complete something that meant so much to me, meant so much to just carry on and people may worship and sing for us even we r no longer there, and all... is beyond my control.
i have done the best i could. helpless...
anyhow, i am still, standing alone on a land of stranger, being strong, alone.
that's a road that i couldn't travel till the end.well, i think i dun have a choice but to move on, to another direction.
that isn any hatred or anger. the memory i have, still filled my heart somewhere, it's beautiful, a beautiful lie.
i am just a fool, i know.
thankful to be together, and thankful to be apart at the end.

sri lanka, here i am.