Thursday, December 9, 2010
干！干！干！！！
发现身边的人生活里都有一些永远都无法完全填补的裂缝，重要的东西就像沙钟里的沙一样，一颗一颗的流逝。但仔细想想， 人生又有什么东西不是那样, 永恒不变？ 哈哈~ 就珍惜现在拥有的，享受过程，活在当下~~ 为拥有而庆祝， 为失去而干杯！！！！
Friday, September 10, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
livin in dark~
came across a fren's profile in facebook, a fren that i didn know who she was.
shocked by just seeing her pictures... that were amazing... words just couldn tell...
sometimes, i really wish that i could be one of them, living in the dark, living in "OWN" body, and never care about tomorrow, as if tomorrow never exist. being myself, never care, never think, let feeling, lust,desire run wild, evoke the inner limitless potential of mine, run, jump and fly ~ unstopable.
wat r the price that i am goin to pay? huh?
seriously asking myself, am i not paying now??? even now i am yet not being like them?
i will unleash myself one day, and when that day comes, i will shine like hell!!!!!!!!
she inspires me, she seduces me...
Monday, August 9, 2010
a beautiful lie
plane finally touched the land of sri langka, katherine mcphee's 'anybody's heart' playing in ears.
yeah.... i remember of him.
"the heart that u have broken is not just anybody's heart~"
"all i wanted just to feel safe... safe in ur arm~"
i am sad, a little, more like a feeling of unable to complete something that meant so much to me, meant so much to just carry on and people may worship and sing for us even we r no longer there, and all... is beyond my control.
i have done the best i could. helpless...
anyhow, i am still, standing alone on a land of stranger, being strong, alone.
that's a road that i couldn't travel till the end.well, i think i dun have a choice but to move on, to another direction.
that isn any hatred or anger. the memory i have, still filled my heart somewhere, it's beautiful, a beautiful lie.
i am just a fool, i know.
thankful to be together, and thankful to be apart at the end.
sri lanka, here i am.
yeah.... i remember of him.
"the heart that u have broken is not just anybody's heart~"
"all i wanted just to feel safe... safe in ur arm~"
i am sad, a little, more like a feeling of unable to complete something that meant so much to me, meant so much to just carry on and people may worship and sing for us even we r no longer there, and all... is beyond my control.
i have done the best i could. helpless...
anyhow, i am still, standing alone on a land of stranger, being strong, alone.
that's a road that i couldn't travel till the end.well, i think i dun have a choice but to move on, to another direction.
that isn any hatred or anger. the memory i have, still filled my heart somewhere, it's beautiful, a beautiful lie.
i am just a fool, i know.
thankful to be together, and thankful to be apart at the end.
sri lanka, here i am.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Permanent
a 2nd song by eric carter hah to me
never could have thought that he actually know what and how i feel all this while when he is fighting for survival....
"Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry.
And everything, it will surely change even if
I tell you I won't go away today
will u think that you're all alone
when no one's there to hold ur hand?
and all u know seems so far away
and everything is temporary rest ur head
i'm permanent
i know he's living in hell every single day
and so i ask oh god is there some way for me to take his place
and when they say it's all touch and go
i wish i could make it go away
but still u say
will u think that you're all alone
when no one's there to hold ur hand?
and all u know seems so far away
and everything is temporary rest ur head
i'm permanent
i'm permanent
Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry...
never could have thought that he actually know what and how i feel all this while when he is fighting for survival....
"Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry.
And everything, it will surely change even if
I tell you I won't go away today
will u think that you're all alone
when no one's there to hold ur hand?
and all u know seems so far away
and everything is temporary rest ur head
i'm permanent
i know he's living in hell every single day
and so i ask oh god is there some way for me to take his place
and when they say it's all touch and go
i wish i could make it go away
but still u say
will u think that you're all alone
when no one's there to hold ur hand?
and all u know seems so far away
and everything is temporary rest ur head
i'm permanent
i'm permanent
Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry...
分手吧~ 哦~ 分手吧
陈伟华
我们做回朋友吧
也就是说 我放弃了我们之间的感情
给了那么多次机会， 最后还是一次又一次的伤害
分手吧 我不适合你 我不能接受你对感情的价值观
ric 知道的东西 我全都知道 他还有力气去和你争辩， 但我已没力气了， 我不想再这样辛苦地爱着你了
你是我这一辈子里对我撒最多谎的人 而我最痛恨的就是谎言， 而且是出自我爱的人口里 伤害更深
这一阵子 kenji告诉我所有的东西之后， 我什么都没说， 累了， 不想再去想为什么你还是要这样， 我只想好好过自己的生活， 照顾ric。 就这样。而且希望你能找份好工作， 所以到现在才提出分手。
与其整天在烦kenji几时才肯放过你， 何不自己洁身自爱， 坦荡荡做人， 哪怕人家重伤你。你停下来的时候， 就是kenji 消失的时候。至于谁是kenji ，你比谁都要清楚，它是一个曾经被你伤得很深的人。
不要再说我答应过什么， 我为你的付出已经远远超过你应得的！！！
不要再说你有多难过多委屈多痛苦， 那是你自己拿来的。别尝试和我讲道理， 只怕我现在一肚子的气爆发在你身上。
我跟你之间的感情， 今天就划上句号。
至于你和ric之间感情， 那是你们之间的事。不关我的事
来了新之后， 好好加油， 从新开始。
我们还是朋友，要是你还想要我这个朋友的话。
得空见面， 喝个茶无妨：）
珍重
占姆士
我们做回朋友吧
也就是说 我放弃了我们之间的感情
给了那么多次机会， 最后还是一次又一次的伤害
分手吧 我不适合你 我不能接受你对感情的价值观
ric 知道的东西 我全都知道 他还有力气去和你争辩， 但我已没力气了， 我不想再这样辛苦地爱着你了
你是我这一辈子里对我撒最多谎的人 而我最痛恨的就是谎言， 而且是出自我爱的人口里 伤害更深
这一阵子 kenji告诉我所有的东西之后， 我什么都没说， 累了， 不想再去想为什么你还是要这样， 我只想好好过自己的生活， 照顾ric。 就这样。而且希望你能找份好工作， 所以到现在才提出分手。
与其整天在烦kenji几时才肯放过你， 何不自己洁身自爱， 坦荡荡做人， 哪怕人家重伤你。你停下来的时候， 就是kenji 消失的时候。至于谁是kenji ，你比谁都要清楚，它是一个曾经被你伤得很深的人。
不要再说我答应过什么， 我为你的付出已经远远超过你应得的！！！
不要再说你有多难过多委屈多痛苦， 那是你自己拿来的。别尝试和我讲道理， 只怕我现在一肚子的气爆发在你身上。
我跟你之间的感情， 今天就划上句号。
至于你和ric之间感情， 那是你们之间的事。不关我的事
来了新之后， 好好加油， 从新开始。
我们还是朋友，要是你还想要我这个朋友的话。
得空见面， 喝个茶无妨：）
珍重
占姆士
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
RIC's words II
"nic didn go to see doctor cause of limited funds. i am collecting some debts my fren owe me. if she unable to pay back i may need to loan some from u 1st. i will be able to pay ya back on the first of august when i get paid. just need bout 200 bucks or less. i dun wan him 2 stress up for it. it's theleast i can do. out of ways now."
"watever! anyway dear. it's beyond the words i can say. 我是你的人了！哈哈~ anyway dear... u know~ i am so late.bus isn't here yet. i am walking out to old klang road now. tired~"
"i still wanna work k so dun curse me la dear~ i am gonna have an angel tattoo. cuz ya my angel~LOL gonna be busy drawingtoday"
"i will always be there no matter where i may be~"
"i really miss ya dear... really..."
"morning dear, sukhihontu- may the triple gems be with u. namo porte sa-to akhante maya i-te bagha wa~ happy new moon~"
"must be a busy day for ya, just wanna tell ya i'm missing ya. huggs~"
"honestly i am not well today, pain is unusual.... but still ok here..."
"why always make me cry de dear...?"
"dear... it's really touching to hear that. that's actually why i wanna have taht angel on me. cuz ya too. why are our mentality wave so alike? and ya mouth sweet till~~~haha. but i know. it's from ur heart~"
"no. you did not. at least i am not in a grey zone too. i even will cherish wat we have now. even more. iam glad that u told me. i really am."
"hugs~u never fail to put a smile on my face."
"dear, my pain is terrible. i wish to talk to ya. but i cant talk properly. dun worry bout me k? ya rest well k? i promise tofight to the end for ya."
"T.T dear... if this continue how would i tel u next time when i am in pain? i promise i will be ok. and i will be. i dun promise. just like u. i am playing with gene now."
"dear, i am not leaving u, that was my initial plan. ya know how hard is it for me today? do ya know how much i wanna be by ur sidenow? how much i am struggling inside? i cam't deny, i love ya now. i love nicholas too. ya know what happen when benny call? i know ya not happy, i am not happy too dear. i am really not. i dun know what is going to happen. but seriously i hate my life now. every part of it"
"good night :) i hope everyday. i do wish to spend that time with ya too. i love you~ hug~"
to be cont~
"watever! anyway dear. it's beyond the words i can say. 我是你的人了！哈哈~ anyway dear... u know~ i am so late.bus isn't here yet. i am walking out to old klang road now. tired~"
"i still wanna work k so dun curse me la dear~ i am gonna have an angel tattoo. cuz ya my angel~LOL gonna be busy drawingtoday"
"i will always be there no matter where i may be~"
"i really miss ya dear... really..."
"morning dear, sukhihontu- may the triple gems be with u. namo porte sa-to akhante maya i-te bagha wa~ happy new moon~"
"must be a busy day for ya, just wanna tell ya i'm missing ya. huggs~"
"honestly i am not well today, pain is unusual.... but still ok here..."
"why always make me cry de dear...?"
"dear... it's really touching to hear that. that's actually why i wanna have taht angel on me. cuz ya too. why are our mentality wave so alike? and ya mouth sweet till~~~haha. but i know. it's from ur heart~"
"no. you did not. at least i am not in a grey zone too. i even will cherish wat we have now. even more. iam glad that u told me. i really am."
"hugs~u never fail to put a smile on my face."
"dear, my pain is terrible. i wish to talk to ya. but i cant talk properly. dun worry bout me k? ya rest well k? i promise tofight to the end for ya."
"T.T dear... if this continue how would i tel u next time when i am in pain? i promise i will be ok. and i will be. i dun promise. just like u. i am playing with gene now."
"dear, i am not leaving u, that was my initial plan. ya know how hard is it for me today? do ya know how much i wanna be by ur sidenow? how much i am struggling inside? i cam't deny, i love ya now. i love nicholas too. ya know what happen when benny call? i know ya not happy, i am not happy too dear. i am really not. i dun know what is going to happen. but seriously i hate my life now. every part of it"
"good night :) i hope everyday. i do wish to spend that time with ya too. i love you~ hug~"
to be cont~
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